healthymomma

Ughh… I stepped on the scales this morning and, to my disgust, I have gained 6 pounds. In one week, six pounds. I’m so disgusted at myself! I haven’t been good on my diet this week, so I expected a little gain. But not 6 pounds! Not exercising is really not helping. But I am not sure when I will be able to get up and Move it, Move it! This is so difficult for me!

To top all of that off, I feel sick this morning! I didn’t sleep good at all last night. I woke up and realized I had rolled onto my stomach…which is terrible because the surgery wound is NOT healed yet! That made me naucious. Then my son started coughing non-stop. So I was up woth him. When I finally went back to sleep I started having terrible nightmares! My hubby woke me up and I was squalling. After he left for work I dozed back off into another nightmare and woke myself up crying. It was awful!

I still feel naucious!

Add to that a bad grade on my final exam for summer semester and it is super stressful right now!

Well….that’s my vent for now. Sorry to explode like that, but I needed to get all that off my chest!

Hope everyone has a good weekend! Here’s to doing my best to stay on track!

God Bless yall!

Well, the labs came back and the spots were nothing!!!! I’m so happy about that!

That good news leads to the news that I will only be having a partial hysterectomy. I go to my gyn August 13th and we will set it up from there. I’m nervous about it….but they should be able to do it without cutting me open since it is just partial. That will make healing time quicker. Which is a good think with 3 kids!!!!!!

Well, just wanted to share my good news. I feel blessed today!

Happy Thursday, all!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, the surgery was yesterday. I am in a whole bunch of pain right now!!!!!!! Mainly just soreness, but it still hurts!

Results: pain is coming from my uterus being tilted in. It has to come out to stop the pain. Could be the cause of irregular T.O.M. problems. Also, found two spots that she removed and sent off. I should find out tomorrow or Thursday the results on those. That is the scariest part for me.

Other than that…not much to tell. I probably gained a few pounds yesterday. Due to not eating breakfast and all the meds they pumped in me…I was really hungry when I got home. They should’ve had a camera on me while I was eating. Could’ve sent it in to one of those funny video shows & won some money! I was still really tired from the anesthesia and from a phenergan shot they gave me, every time I would take a bite I would fall asleep chewing. My husband had to wake me up and make me swallow my food! He was laughing so hard….it was funny, so I couldn’t be mad at him for laughing at me.

Well…I hope you all are doing well. Please continue to keep me in your prayers…as more surgery is to come. I need all the prayers I can get! Juat happy they found the source of my pain!

God Bless!!!!!!

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Okay, so yesterday I got ticked! And I mean ticked. I found out that there is a two hour test that certifies you to be a teacher’s aid…..I have been in college for a year now and I have another year and a half left before I graduate…going to be a teacher’s aid. No one told me about this test until yesterday!!!!! I’m going to go take it. I am still going to finish out my schooling…I think it is worth it….but I AM going to take the test so I can hopefully start my career a year earlier than planned.

Yesterday just wan’t a good day for me!

I thought it was the week before TOM…nope, TOM came early. That’s the first time in forever its been early. Now I am wondering if they are still going to be able to do the surgery Monday. Guess I’ll find out today when I go for my pre-surgery labs. I hope they can still do it….I have been in pain long enough with no answers! I’m tired of this!!!!!!!!

On the bright side, I still took off a pound this week…so that makes me happy.

Well, I gotta get ready. Going to spend the day with my grandmother(well…except for the part where I have to go get my labs done….she’s babysitting for me!) My granddad passed away almost three months ago…so I try to make sure we go over and spend a whole day with her every week. She’s really lonely. They were married 65 years. She was use to us coming once a week before he passed away…and I feel like it is just as important, if not more so, to continue going now.

Anyway….hope you all have a blessed weekend!

Take care & God Bless!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

UGHHHHH….it is the week before TOM is suppose to rear its ugly little head and that means I stay hungry all the time!!!!!!! And to make it all worse, there’s no healthy snacks in the house!! All that’s here is chocolate animal crackers! At least I don’t like those, I’d be in trouble!!!!!!!

But I sooooo feel like I need a chocolate fix. I have got to find some healthy chocolate for those gotta have moments. I may have to munch on some cheese to make this hunger feeling go away.

Okay…so Monday was a bad diet day…yesterday was okay…and today has been good…but I feel like I’m going to crash and burn! I’m so hungry!!!!!! Or at least that is what my tummy is telling me…..and hunger pains on top pf the tummy pain I already have is more than I can handle.

Anyway…needed to vent. Drinking some water….guess I’ll snack on low-fat cheese. Maybe that will help.

Keep on keeping on.

Have a blessed Wednesday!

Okay, so i weighed in this morning at 184.6. I went to my tracker and I put in 185…because .6 is closer to 5 than 4….and the thing says…good job, but you are losing weight too fast. You need to slow it up to 2-3 pounds a week. We suggest you see your health care provider. (something like that…not word for word.)

What’s up with that? I’ve been on here for 1 and 1/2 weeks and I’ve only lost 5 pounds…..that’s not more than I am suppose to lose, is it?

Man…you do something good and you still get a lecture!!!!!! I figure part of it was water weight in the beginning anyway. UGHHH! Well…I’m not pushing myself too hard or starving myself, so I don’t feel the need to go to the dr. Besides, I couldn’t afford to go if I wanted to!

I can’t exercise, so my diet is how I am losing the weight…and I am not eating too little…believe me. i thought I was eating too much, but the scales disagree. I’m proud of my loss & I am just going to keep doing what I have been doing.

Hope you all have a blessed week!!!!!!!

Well, my gyn had decided to do laproscopic surgery to look for the source of my pain. July30.

So, to all of you who have faith…say a little prayer for me that God will be with me & they will finally figure out what is causing this pain.

Feeling hopeful this morning. The pain is pretty bad today…but at least I know they are trying to figure out why. Not fond of anesthesia…for some reason it affects my horomones in a way that makes me cry when I am coming out of it. I will honestly be crying uncontrollably & have no idea why! Its embarrasing. But anyway, just wanted to share the news & ask for prayers. God has a plan, and although I may not see the big picture or understand His purpose sometimes, I know that HE alone knows what is best. I trust Him fully.

That being said…..Have a great Thursday!

In the RIGHT direction!!!! I was so afraid I would continue to gain since I can’t really exercise.(pain)

But I got up this morning and weighed..(hadn’t since Sunday)…and I went from 189.2 down to 186.8!!!! Yeah!

That gives me motivation to keep going when I felt like quitting!!!!! HumpDay is a good day for me this week!!!!!!!!!

God Bless!!!!!!!

Isn’t it wonderful how a child’s smiling face can brighten even the darkest of days? Isn’t it wonderful how children love you even when you don’t love yourself?

I just don’t know what I would do without my three kids. They can turn a frown to a smile, a tear to laughter, and a heartache to joy just by saying they love me!

God blessed me so greatly by placing these three younguns in my life. Sure, it isn’t always peaches & cream…there are always rough spots being a parent. Parents make rules that kids sometimes don’t like…..kids break those rules sometimes. But we have to make mistakes to learn from them! We cannot expect those perfect little angels to be perfect little angels all the time!!! They have to be kids!!!!

My favorite times are when we are playing together and just having a good time. Like here while back…it had rained so much the driveway was standing in water…so the kids and I got out there and played in the puddles! I have some of the best pictures of my kids all muddy and laughing! Oh…and playing in the rain when it isn’t lightning!!!! We don’t have any pics of that (lost them when the pc crashed)…but I have pictures of it in my mind! These are the things that motivate me! I want to be healthy so I can do more with my kids….and not feel miserable while we are playing! I want to be able to run with them & not be out of breath after 5 seconds!!!!

Their smiling faces give me the strength to keep going on those days when I want to give up. I love my kids…and I thank God every day for letting me be a part of their lives!!!!!!!!

I can never express to them how much I love them…but I am surely gonna try!!!!

God bless you all!!!

Keep reaching for your goals!

I am still in pain…went on to the ER under dr’s advice. Not appendicitis (THANK GOD!), not a UTI as originally suspected, not a cyst as far as they can tell….no explanation for the pain/nausea that I am experiencing non-stop throughout the past 4 days. The ER dr says he recommends having laproscopic surgery to look for endometriosis. I have to call my gyn this morning to discuss this option with her. Boy, that’s just what I need!!!! And if they find endo….best thing to do is have a hysterectomy since I can’t have anymore kids anyway. That will put me down for at least 6 weeks. Of course, that’s me looking for the worst. But all other options have been weighed and no other explanation has been found! Prayers is all that will help now. They need to find the source of this pain and make it stop! I can’t exercise…..it is all I can do to move around to much. The pain is sharp and it make me feel sick to my stomach to move around too much.

Add a gain of a pound over the weekend and this is just not the best Monday I’ve had in a while.

Sorry to get on here and go off about all this….I just needed to vent. When I finally decide to take the first step and get back with the program to take the rest of this weight off something goes wrong and I cannot put my all into it. This bites!!!!

Anyway….maybe my dr will figure all this out soon. Until then…I will have to rely on diet alone to take off weight. Maybe I will drop a few pounds here and there if I can just make healthier food choices and not snack when I am not really hungry. It’s worth a shot….so, here goes nothing!